close my eyes and wonder why,
Iím still here,
on this earth
the minutes go by
sit and wonder why.
my dark, confined room
lay and wonder.
mind goes around and around,
get dizzy then I fall to the floor.
room is spinning and I canít remember where I am.
try to sit up but I wonít budge.
reach for my knife
bring it to my throat
push it against my neck
I see the blood dripping down my naked body.
The air is getting thinner
hard to breath.
eyes growing heavier and heavier
slowly begin to close as the end
nearer and nearer.
hear a scream
I canít move.
then see a light but canít move to it.
feel warm hands as my naked body begins to move up.
lying in a bed my eyes begin to open,
can hear people begin to cry for happiness.