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ALIVE
I close my eyes and wonder why,
why I’m still here,
here on this earth
living, breathing.
As the minutes go by
I sit and wonder why.
In my dark, confined room
I lay and wonder.
My mind goes around and around,
I get dizzy then I fall to the floor.
The room is spinning and I can’t remember where I am.
I try to sit up but I won’t budge.
I reach for my knife
slowly bring it to my throat
gently push it against my neck
and I see the blood dripping down my naked body.
the air is getting thinner
it’s hard to breath
My eyes growing heavier and heavier
they slowly begin to close as the end
grows nearer and nearer.
I hear a scream
but I can’t move.
I then see a light but can’t move to it.
I feel warm hands as my naked body begins to move up.
I’m lying in a bed my eyes begin to open,
I can hear people begin to cry for happiness.
I am alive.
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